I really need a do over. Or a hug. Or a cigarette (ew, never mind). Or a drink. Or...
First, it was pouring here this morning. Pour.ing. And there's just no cooler thing than having to take a huge plastic garbage bag, cut along the sides of it to make a huge sheet of plastic, and rigging it up around your baby's stroller so that she doesn't drown by the downpour. Not cool. Meanwhile, by the time we finally make it down the street and to the car (um yeah, thinking about moving to a big city with no private parking, think about the rain and snow and 100% humidified 90 degree days!), I'm drenched from my head to my toes. But my baby girl remained dry as a bone so I guess I won. : )
Then I come to work and feel like I'm sitting a pile of shit all day because I'm doing work that I have no clue about. And regardless how much I try to understand what's happening, I don't... because it doesn't really pertain to me. I just sort of take information that's given to me and supply it where needed. And now I'm the middle man and ... UGH.
I just need to be with my baby girl right now. So bad. She really is the cure-all to everything. God I miss that sweet face. ... This morning when I had her on the changing table, giving her kisses, she put her hand up to my face. She just held it there and didn't do one of her death grips which has become the norm lately. She gently touched my face as we looked into each other's eyes and smiled at one another. I gave her another kiss and kept my face super close to hers so she could keep touching my face and she lifted her other hand up and basically held onto my face.
I really need more of that, please. Stat.
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