I'm getting kind of scared now.
I still feel like I did a week ago. Maybe even worse.
I feel like I have so very little control left of my sanity. I feel so full of ... rage. And for no fucking reason. None whatsoever. But still, I feel like this rage is eating me up. I feel like it's on the verge of exploding out of me and onto others.
I feel angry. Angry and sad. And so motherfucking tired.
I sincerely feel like I'm losing my grip on the reality I used to know. And it's so confusing.
I attribute this all to PMS but I really can't recall the last time I've had PMS this fucking bad.
I'm near tears at all times. But more than that, I'm near exploding. VIOLENTLY exploding.
Every and any little motherfucking thing pisses me off.
I've snapped so much this weekend despite trying to not open my mouth.
I don't like feeling like this and no matter what I do, nothing seems to help. Not even a little bit.
These feelings are completely consuming me and I'm scared that I may finally just lose my shit.
Jesus Christ somethings gotta give.
Do I go to a gynecologist? A psychologist? What the fuck do I do with all this motherfucking anger inside of me??
(And no, I still don't have my motherfucking period and hell no is there a chance that I could be pregnant.)