May 15, 2012

Immeasurable

It’s important to me that she has good memories. Of her childhood, of her family, of life.

It’s my job to ensure that this happens.

It’s just how I feel.




The love I hold for this child… the extent for which I would go to ensure her happiness …  is absolutely immeasurable.

I don’t think I’m saying anything new here.



It’s important to me that she have photos and/or videos of her life to help jog her memory or help show her the way things were at every stage in her life. Pictures of eating solids for the first time. Pictures of park visits. Pictures of her staring at the TV. Pictures of her playing with her toys. Pictures of her with family…

It’s important to me that she has pictures of us- Mama and Daughter.

I’m not in a happy place right now with my weight. I’m the heaviest I’ve been ever (yes, I’m heavier than I was when I was 9 months pregnant). Yet, I can’t seem to stop piling the shit food into my mouth. Those pictures she won’t ever see- not on film, not in memory. I will ensure this to always be. But, I still NEED her to have photos of us together. From every stage of her life during my life. Tomorrow is not guaranteed and if I leave this life without ensuring that she has good memories, that she has photos of the everyday and her family… I will have absolutely failed her.

So when we played at the park on Mother’s Day, and I watched my girl shine brighter than the sun that was absolutely relentless that day, my heart nearly exploded when my husband showed me a photo he snapped on his new cell phone of the two of us.



The love I hold for this child is absolutely immeasurable. I can write it down all I want, but now I finally have a(nother) photo to back up my words. A photo so beautiful it moved me to tears.



Get in the photo with your child(ren). YOU MUST DO THIS. TODAY.



20 comments:

  1. This is so very important.

    I'm so glad that you smiled for that camera, and posted that photo.

    (You are so worth it!)

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    1. thanks, Galit- for the comment and for the link up. i love linking up! :)

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  2. Absolutely. I told my husband before the baby #2 was born, that he needed to get behind the camera more and take pictures of my boys WITH me.

    Wonderful photo!!

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    1. yes! good for you. and thanks for doing the link up with Galit- always a fun time. :)

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  3. That is a beautiful, beautiful picture.
    And start taking lots of photo's because your child sees nothing but the person she loves. I started to do that and lately, I started to see myself through my kid's eyes. And I don't see the weight, or the disappointment, I see myself.

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    1. ABSOLUTELY!! :) if only everyone saw what they see.

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  4. What a wonderful picture! Your love for your daughter shines from every word in this post.

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    1. oh thank you so much. she's my everything.

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  5. Our camera broke...and it can't be fixed, so thankfully we got the warranty and are getting a replacement for free. It's been torture not having it for the past 10 days. I can't wait to get it back and take a pic. ;)

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    1. confession: the majority of my photos this year have been taken with my phone. at least it's better than nothing, right? :)

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  6. I have so few pictures of myself with my kids! And many of the ones that do actually include me are because I have mastered the use of the timer! My husband takes terrible pictures lol
    but it is so important that we take responsibility for preserving these memories for our children.

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    1. oh yes, most of the ones with me and her together are with me holding the camera out in front of us (lame). :) better than nothing though.

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  7. Really good reminder - I am at that place at different times in my life and looking back at the pictures, you can tell which times those were. It's good you make a conscious effort - I will be more aware of it now as well. Great shot!

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    1. awesome- i really feel so passionately about this. i don't have ONE photo of my mom and i together before like age 10 or something. no lie!

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  8. That's a great picture of the two of you! Isn't it incredible that their first memory - like, the first one they can recall on their own without any prompting by a photo or a story from us - is just about to happen. It could happen at any time now. I try to remind myself of that mostly because I want her first memory to be a really good, really sweet one.

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    1. ack, Monica!!! you're RIGHT! i have NO DOUBT that Ada's first memory will be a good one. same with Lovie. cuz we got it like that. ;D

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  9. I think you look wonderful in this picture for the record. I know what you mean though. I have to consciously put away my negative self talk and put myself in the pictures with Caroline and Landry, even though I hate seeing pictures of me at the weight I am right now. I want them to have those pictures to look back at.

    Your lovey will be so happy to have the pictures of you and her together.

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  10. Oh, see. That's EXACTLY what happened with mine. Are we twins? I hated so many of the shots my husband took, but the one on my blog, I love. Adore. I'm always behind the camera. It's not enough. We need to be in FRONT of it, too. No matter what. You look so happy. Perfectly captured. Thanks for sharing.

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    1. :) that's how i felt when i read your post and saw your photo. :)

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