February 13, 2013

bedtime by a 3 year old


I threw it on the ground and burst into tears. If she wants me to go to sleep without her laying with me then I would do all I could to make her mad so that I could start crying and tell her how sad she makes me feel and then she will hug me and try to shush away the crying. I just love when she hugs me. When she wraps me into her fluffy arms and boobs and tummy. I love when she’s nice and she’s nice most of the time but then she tells me to get into the bed and I just don’t want to. Not without her. And she won’t lay by me because the chart says I must stay in bed by myself. With my stuffed bear. So I thew the bear on the ground and burst into tears. I want her to lay with me. I want her to tell me stories. I want her to lay with me until I fall asleep. And if she won’t then I won’t let her go in peace.

“I want you to leave!” I shout, looking down at my bear and the sticker sheet lying beside it. I could stick those on my books and my dresser and my pajamas and mama’s pajamas and my hand and mama would look nice with one on her forehead and in her—

“Honey, it’s time for bed,” she coos.

“NO I DON’T WANNA. I WANT YOU TO LEAVE.”

“But what are you going to do if I leave?”

“NOTHING. I WILL DO NOTHING ON MY FLOOR!”

“Honey, it’s time for bed.”

“NO I DON’T WANNA GO TO BED. I WANNA DO NOTHING ON MY FLOOR!”

She shakes her head at me and turns off the closet light and turns off the light to the room and opens the door of my room and sits down on the floor in the doorway so that I can’t go in or out. Her back is to me. She won’t look at me. She won’t talk to me.  And now it’s my turn to cry.

“You make me sad,” I tell her.

“Honey,” she says, turning toward me and touching me. “It’s time for bed sweetie, and you tell me to leave you alone instead… Do you want me to hold you?”

“Yeah,” I sniffle. “And I need a tissue.”

“Ok, love. All you have to do is tell me you want me to hold you.”

She stands up. It’s still super dark.

“I want you to hold me.”

“Of course, love,” she giggles and scoops me into her arms.

She kisses me and kisses me and squeezes me into her and kisses me some more. She holds the back of my head with one hand as my butt sits in her other. She lays me down and tells me to get under the covers and then she lays next to me and tells me a story. And now me and my bear can finally go to sleep.
 
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fiction (kinda sorta) for the yeahwrite speakeasy peeps.
 
 

13 comments:

  1. Aw, so sweet! Makes me think of my son. Great perspective, great writing - I really enjoyed reading this!

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  2. I love this! I could hear this in the voice of a 3-year-old and it reminds me of my daughter :)

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  3. Very sweet! My son is 9 and still wants me to sleep with him, in his bed until he falls asleep.

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  4. Great perspective...I am trying to wean my 2 yr old from my bed, quite unsuccessfully. Two hours into it, he is bawling and asking for me, I value my sleep, and love his cuddles so suddenly I steal him and his Elmo doll into my bd.

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  5. Aw! A good mom knows what that acting out means! <3 Lucky kiddo.

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  6. This is fun, I knoew plenty of parents who have nights like these.

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  7. This was really, really lovely.

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  8. Awwww. You are the best Mom EVER!

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  9. Awwwww...I had a good chuckle at "I wanna do nothing on my floor!" lol

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  10. Bedtime. Ugh... Bedtime.

    Right now my five-year-old is going through a clingy phase. I can barely get out of the room without her being attached to me. And one of my twins is a mama's girl, so she wants to be held all the time, too. My lap is too full, LOL!

    And I love snuggling sleepy kids.

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  11. I have a three year old. She has never been much of a snuggle pumpkin, but my little one is. Good thing they are so cute...

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  12. Such a sweet story. My 6 yo likes to fall asleep in our bed and we carry him to his. I'll enjoy it while it lasts. ;)

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